As I was staring at the darkness, trying to fall asleep, a friend texted me this message.
"everybody seems kinda lost these past few months. I hope di ganun ang situation mo."
I was intrigued and at the same time touched. I rarely get messages of concern from friends. And this one made my day.
But it's true that lately things haven't been very well with a lot of people who I know. As for the degree of trouble that they have, it's not that tragic. But problems still, nevertheless. And I miss seeing my friends smile. Ako din, I have my own problems. Everyday, I get the same work headaches over and over again. And then some. But I try to keep sane through positivity.
Everyone has problems naman, right? May mga sipleng problema, may komplikado, and there are problems na hindi naman actually problema like love. Kaartehan lang.
Dahil sa love problems, dalawa lang ang pagpipilian mo. Oo o hindi. Tikman o magpatikim. Subukan o umiwas. Sumubo o lumuwa. Spit or swallow.
Kung ano man ang desisyon mo, PAREHONG may maganda at di masyadong magandang kahihinatnan which is fine. That's life.
Me, I worry about work. I worry about why I seem to get weaker. I worry about where I will be in the future. I worry about my friends. I worry about my boyfriend. I think friends have this impression na wala akong problema. Probably because I don't post much about my problems and issues. Or I don't talk or write about it on my blog. All they see are happy pictures with friends and the boyfriend. Plus a Mom who's an excellent provider. But I do have this weight on my shoulders that just doesn't go away easily. Siguro kaya din may insomnia ako minsan dahil sa kaiisip. It's not easy to have this responsibility to act as a leader of an organization.
But you know, life isn't all about that. Every now and then, I have to remind myself about the lesson I learned from Brian. Death can choose anyone to be next in line. Mapa bata o matanda. Life is too short to spend on worries.
So keep on posting your happy thoughts and keep taking happy pictures and then share them. It's all about that.
Meanwhile, naaawa ako dito sa kotcheng bumanga sa Avanza. Nakita ko kaninang umagawa. It's a BMW 1. Tapos cute pa yung may-ari (nasa likod ng naka dark polo na lalakeng jubez). Kawawa naman siya (sniff, sniff). Di ko lang nakunan ng pic. Sayang. La lang, landi lang.