Traffic Day Friday

In the Time Wasting department, my day was something. This is worse than spending half your day in a government office. I was on the road most of my time because of the punyetang SLEX traffic. Tapos ang init- init pa. Kawawa naman si Nonoy. Sino si Nonoy? Yung driver ko. Ehehehe. Ang bango-bango niya today. In fairness, wala siyang kaamoy na lalakeng nakain ko sa CB before. So unique siya. Ahaha. Gusto kong kainin driver ko. Rawr!

I wish I could blog while on the road kaso, one, mobile internet is so mahalia fuentes. I'm already paying for my broadband connection at home. And two, my X2 is so bulok kaya. I can't even connect to my google map! Either that or maybe my Sun settings isn't configured right on my phone. Or bulok talaga ang sun. Leche. Pero cool sana yun 'no if i can go online anytime i want. Kaso olats. All i can do for now is type on my phone. Pasalamat na lang ako kahit na paano may Mobile Word ito. Dahil kung hindi inihagis ko na ito sa bintana at sasaluhin ng isang jejemon sa katabing jeep.

Jejejejejeje.

Yesterday boyfriend and I were browsing DVDs at Astro in Festi tapos nakita namin DVD ng 2012 na may kasamang documentary. And then he said pakiramdam niya talagang malapit na daw ang end of the world. Natakot naman ako di ba? We've talked about this before. I've also talked about this with friends. And this is what Brian and I were talking about a day before he passed away. I don't wanna be around when that day comes, if that day will really come. Pero we've been praying for it nga eh. It's in the Lord's Prayer. Ugh! It's so hard to keep the faith when you're afraid. Dati sabi ko sa sarili ko I wanna die young kasi I don't wanna go through the trials in life anymore (naks!). Pero ngayon sometimes gusto kong mamatay kasi ayokong ma-witness ang end of the world kung maisip ko man yun. You can't blame me. Puro violence ang pinapakita sa End-of-the-world movies kasi. I don't wanna die screaming in pain or in terror 'no.

Alright, thinking about that just made me sad. Amoyin ko na lang si Nonoy para matuwa ako.

* sniff snif.

Mmmm. Musky. Machew.

Another Year, Another Wedding

It rained a little in Alabang today. It didn't help much with the crisis dahil wala kaming tubig ngayon. And that's today's irony. Umulan, pero wala kamig tubig. Heller?? What kind of a sushalang village is this? I propose we buy our own lake! And we call it Lake Chorva-Chorva. And as usual, tumatagaktak ang pawis ko sa init. Not as hot as last week's scorcher tho, so thank God for that. Nevertheless, I find comfort walking around my room in my underwear. Mainit talaga, susme!

A high school friend of mine is getting married this Saturday morning. I don't know why they chose to get married on the 1st of May, or at 8 in the morning for that matter. Nabasa ko na yung reason nila actually kanina on their wedding website but i was also looking at porn at the same time so you know my attention was divided 20:80 kaya wala akong natandaan sa binasa ko. I only realized karamihan ng mga gwapo bading pero hindi karamihan ng bading gwapo. And don't quote me on that! Baka masabunutan ako ni Papa P, kung saan man ako may buhok pa (wink, wink). ANYWAY, another year, another wedding. Minsan tinatanong ko sa sarili ko, had I become straight, would I be married by now? Hindi kaya ng powers kong mag conclude. The mere thought of a pekpek on a honeymoon night just makes me wanna faint.

Parang, "Ay! May daga!". (*himatay)

Ako naman "Ay! Bilatchina hubadesa!". (*himatay)

Ack!

Ayan. Lalagnatin na yata ako. I need my vitamin C!

I thought I was going to the gym tonight just to take a bath pero the maid was able to fill up pala my ever reliable balde with water so YEHEY to that. And besides, I feel too lazy to drive. Yeah I know, nasa tapat lang ng village yung gym pero my gulay, nakakatamad mag drive! I... Need... Motivation...! Ahahaha.

I'm typing this using my X2. I already updated the software, for the 4th time, and I think (oh here I go again) it improved naman. Except for the battery. It drains so fast, like a Japanese orgasm (I watch Japanese porn kaya I know pang short time lang talaga sila). Basta advice ko sa inyo, don't get the X2. Mag N97 na lang kayo. Free pa ang gps map.

I wish I could camp out in our garden. Seriously. Mas malamig sa labas, and I won't need to use electricity pa. Kaso duwag ako sa mumu so I'll forget about that idea.

I Need Neighbors!

Got home a little early from work today and I had nothing to do.



I really wish I have friends in the village I can hang out with.

Aliwan sa Dagat ng mga Pwet

Except for some brainless insects at work, I had a fairly good week. I super hope I can make this positivity thingee be part of my life forever. Di naman sa I want to touch people's lives like I want to touch their pwet. Gusto ko lang maging unang homosexual saint, kung hindi man ako maging ganap na diwata with wings sa bundok ng tralala.

Charing!

Hindi ko alam na there was such a thing as an Aliwan Fiesta. Akala ko parada ng mga macho dancer at gogo girls (eww, kadiri). Alam mo na, ALIWAN. Yun pala parada siya ng iba't ibang piesta sa Pilipinas. The boyfriend and I were invited to watch it last saturday sa MOA. Masaya naman. Gusto ko yung mga drum beats. Nakakatuwa ang mga costumes. At higit sa lahat, ang daming cute na photographers!!! At lahat sila naka L lens. Nahiya naman ako sa S lens ko at entry level camera ko, di ba. Anyway, it was fun pero nakakapagod mainly due to the heat.











Nagpamasahe kami after dinner. Doon sa favorite place namin sa Quezon Avenue. Ayoko na kay Kim. Nakakagigil na cute siya pero ang bilis niyang magmasahe. Sayang naman at kaya pa naman niya ang hard massage kahit na paano. Babalikan ko si Alvin at hihingi ng tawad. Magpapahipo ulit ako ng pwet sa kanya. Wehehehe.

Napapahilig nanaman ako sa masahe. Yesterday kasi nagpamasahe ulit ako doon naman malapit sa Coastal Mall pero kasama ko si Rusky dahil pareho kaming petiks mood on a sunday. Nakajackpot ako sa masahista. Hard massage to death ang gawa ni Lito. Dinurog lahat ng madudurog sa likod ko. Masakit na masarap. Tinanong pa ako kung nasasaktan ako. Sabi ko nang pahingal, "hindi... ayos lang... Masarap... Ouch...".

At ouch pa talaga ang nasabi ko. Para bang sinabi ko sa dagat ng mga hubad na pwet sa common room na "yes... Sinabi ko ouch... Vaklah akoh".

Lito, magkikita ulit tayo. Bigkasin mo lang ang pangalan ko. Allan. AHAHAHAHAHA. Mag-alias ba?

Forgive & Forget

Ugh! Blogger is so not user friendly, I swear. I thought of deleting my account and just continue blogging on Multiply and Livejournal where I can filter readers and trace back comments. But then I can't figure out how to delete my blogger account. Anyway, I guess it's alright. I have been linking up some interesting sites from blogspot and I can use my account to post my comments. So yeah, I'm keeping my blogger for now.

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Anyway... I have been talking to an old friend lately. He's another friend's ex boyfriend who is, as what he would describe himself, a JACKASS. Suffice it to say, he was not a good friend, or a boyfriend. Many years ago, umutang si C sa akin and since then on hindi na nagpakita sa akin. The gay world is a small world kaya from time to time, I would encounter a form of connection with him. Pinakahuli siguro last year nang malamang kong dina-date siya ng isa kong kaibigan (sadyang napaka liit ng mundo ng mga bading, 'no?). Around the same time, may mga ibang tao na umutang din sa akin na eventually parang nagkalayuan or nagkalimutan na. I believe I already blogged about this 3 years ago. People tend to abuse me somehow. Yes, it's sad. Pero siguro the problem with me is I let them din kasi. Minsan, I tend to please my friends too much kasi sabik akong magkaroon ng mga kaibigan. So yeah, it's also my fault. Given that situation, it gave me a big weight in my heart. I may be mad, but I was definitely upset.

Being angry did not do me any good. Alam mo yung mabigat ang loob mo parati, na kung minsan nakakalimutan mo nang ngumiti? O kaya kung minsan napapa-iyak na lang ako dahil pakiramdam ko tau-tauhan lang ako sa buhay ng mga taong inaakala kong mga kaibigan? Tapos napagisip-isip ko din na para mapagaan ko ang pakiramdam ko, dahil hindi ko na madatnan ang mga taong may atraso sa akin, siguro dapat patawarin ko na lang sila. At totoo nga naman, ibang ginhawa ang naramdaman ko nang sa isip at puso ko sinabi kong pinapatawad ko sila. Kinalimutan ko na ang lahat. Ni hindi ko na alam kung magkano ang pagkaka-utang ng bawat isa. Sabi ko nga sa sarili ko kung hindi pa rin sila magbayad, ayos lang. Ayokong makaramdam ulit ng sama ng loob. Pero kung maisipan nilang magbayad, maraming salamat naman.

Early this year, C added me as a friend on Facebook. Hindi niya ako maiiwasan because we have a lot of common friends, kasama na diyan ang kaibigan kong naging date niya at isang pang kaibigan na naging kabit niya (tumambling ang kaluluwa ko mula Makati hangang Alabang nang malaman ko yan, pramiz!). Ilang beses ko siyang nakikitang online pero pareho kaming hindi nagpapansinan. Hangang sa isang araw last week, hindi ko na talaga matiis, ako na ang naunang bumati sa kanya. Nag usap kami na para bang walang nanyari. Nagbibiruan tulad noong bago pa lang kami magkakilala.

Gusto ko sanang sabihin sa kanya, "You've been a very bad girl. A very very bad bad girl, C."

It was strange and at the same time relieved to confirm na hindi ako nagtanim sa kanya ng galit. At siya naman humingi ng tawad. Parang (ahahaha. Tangina. Hindi ako sure kung humingi nga siya ng tawag pero KEBERRR). Ewan ko lang kung may balak pa rin siya magbayad ng utang. Tignan lang natin!

I believe forgiveness is one act to authenticate your being human. We all try to be the best this and that. But in the process, we commit mistakes. We all make mistakes. We are entitled to. So I don't think we should deprive of anyone of our forgiveness. Lalo naman kung ang pagkakamali ay hindi sinasadya. Sino ba naman tayo para magmamataas. This links to my previous post that life is too short to collect anger.

One by one, gusto kong patuloy na magpatawad ng mga tao. Try lang. Sa totoo lang, masarap din itong gawin. The key word is TRY.

2 Hours Away from Alabang

While waiting for the boyfriend at Makiling park this morning, I noticed that there's a jogging path (sort of) around the area. It got me to think again about running. Mukhang madali namang mag jog sa park. It's safer at konti lang makakakita sa akin. I tried running last Christmas but never did it again. Sumakit lang tuhod ko lalo. Sa gym I run on the threadmill pero doon pa lang sumasama na knee ko. But I still do it for 30 minutes. Mas masakit pa pala if I run on pavement. Pero siguro I should just run slow. Maybe I'll start running again this week kung hindi tamarin. Sa gabi para hindi nakakahiya, just in case himatayin ako sa pagod. Ahaha.




The boyfriend took me to his favorite Binalot place in Canlubang. Dito daw nag start yung Binalot. I ordered porkchop (na lasang adobo). Hani had longaniza (na lasang hotdog). It was so-so. Edible naman, in fairness! Haha.



Nandito kami ngayon sa Boracay.

JOKE LANG.

Over night kami dito sa San Juan Batangas. At sa wakas, nakabiyahe na din an gkotche ko outside metro manila. Ahaha. Almost one year na kotche ko, hindi man lang nakaka-lagpas ng Laguna. We were not able to get a reservation in one of the better resorts dahil last week lang kami nakapag plano. Ahaha. And besides, fully booked na silang lahat until May, all weekends. So good luck na lang doon, di ba? Ayos naman itong tinutuluyan namin. May aircon, running water at isang katerbang langgam. LOL. Very basic. I shouldn't complain. At least may nakuha pa kaming room eh kaming dalawa lang naman.

The beach in front of the resort we're staying in was crowded this afternoon, kaya naghanap pa kami ng less crowded area to swim in, which was just about 15 lakad minutes away.



We had merienda when we got back. Generous servings of ginataan.



Tapos nag coffee break pa with junk food. The boyfriend loves junkfood.

Anyway, that's all I can make chika for now. Natutulog na si Hani. Napagod yata sa biyahe. Yung mga nagvi-videoke sa labas mga mukhang sinaniban ng masasamang espiritu. I will listen to praise music on my iPod. Baka makarelax sa akin kahit na paano at makatulog din ako.

Here are some pics I took this afternoon.



Mangtataho sa gitna ng beach


Boyfriend taking pictures


Hermit crabs! Boring pets. Pramiz!


People looking for hermit crabs at sunset at lowtide.


Hani still taking some more pictures before complete darkness.


Ganito ba ang moon ngayon sa Alabang?

Good Vibes

Ang bait-bait ko today. Maybe because I'm still going through this oh-wow-life-is-too-short phase muni-muni. Yesterday, I was telling myself na, yeah, life really is short. And you can never tell when it's your time to go. And similar to what Brian's last message to me was, when it is really your time, only pray for a peaceful exit. Kaya ngayon, I'm trying to remind myself na to smile often, if not always. I mean, it's like always thinking positive. Sayang ang araw kung galit ako parati or hindi maganda ang impression ko sa ibang tao. Kung may bad situation, relax because there's always a solution. I will try to be considerate of negative people too. I got negative friends and madalas I avoid them. Pero ngayon, siguro I'll just try to accept who they are. Ganun na talaga sila eh. Iba naman din kasi ang pagiging nega sa pagiging masama, right? Tatamaan din ako ng init ng ulo or galit from time to time. I just pray na God will quickly remind me to keep it cool.

But I'm not gonna go "seize the day," or "strive to make a difference," or alam mo yun? Yung parang pipilitin ko ang sarili kong maging super man? Hindi ko naman siguro kailangan pang gawin yun. Ang point ko lang naman kailangan ko gawing maging mas human ako. To love the people around me. I'll try to. I will also love my friends. Yeah, of course I love my friends. Makulit na ako pero, I'll try to be more positive, or remind myself to.

Yesterday afternoon I went to St. James and prayed. Not just for Brian. But also for myself. Napaka peaceful ng simbahan na walang laman. Walang stress! I asked God to make me better. When I was younger I asked God to make me happy. But I think I didn't deserve it kaya hindi ko yun naramdaman. Ang tagal na ng panahon to realize this pero I guess I should be happy, given all the blessings that I have. Kinailangan ko lang siguro na mabatukan, spiritually. Sure, maiinggit pa rin ako sa ibang tao. Sana ganito, sana ganyan. Lalo na ngayon bakasyon ang mga tao tapos ako hindi makalayas because of responsibilities (hindi ako maka-relate sa long weekend na yan ha). Pero sa ngayon, siguro magiging mas kuntento na ako sa situation ko. Happy pa rin naman eh. I still get to see my friends, although bihira. Nakakalabas pa rin kapag weekend. At nakakapag pamasahe (hihihihi.... simple joys).

Magugulat malamang nanay ko if she finds out na I went to church today. I was back at St. James kanina for the 6:30PM mass. I went to mass. All by myself! I don't go to mass lalo na dito sa village kasi nakakairita ang mga taong nagsisimba. Fashion show na, tapos makikita mo pa yung mga matapobre. The irony! (O Felipe, positivity! Positivity!). Anyway, nung 1st year college ako, I used to go to the 6:30pm mass. And siguro I got tired of it so I stopped. Ang tagal na nun. More than a decade! Grabe. Anyway, I liked the mass kanina. It wasn't crowded. Siguro 1/4 lang ng simbahan kanina, or wala pa. Mostly oldies ang nagsisimba. And I think it's more solemn kasi tahimik. This doesn't mean na I will start hearing mass regularly. I wanted to feel peace kaya I decided to go to church. And it helped. I'm smiling again. yung smile na parang mas maaliwalas ang tingin ko sa buhay. Parang ganun. Maybe I'll be attending the weekday 6:30pm mass once in a while. Kanina I didn't take communion. Siguro na wirdohan sa akin yung mga tao. I was like stuck to my seat. Kasi hindi ko alam kung anong symbolism ng taking a communion and if it's REALLY REALLY essential na you do it. Kung symbolism lang naman that it's Christ, magdadasal na lang ako directly sa kanya. Sabi ko nga sa dasal ko kanina baka nakukulitan na sa akin ang Diyos kasi paulit-ulit ang dasal ko.

To everyone. Seriously, be happy. Llife really is short to waste your time on anger. Forgive and forget. I have another post about that pero, haaaaaay. Pagod na akesh. Next time na lang.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow. Over night kami ni Hani sa Laiya. It's our date weekend. I hope everything will be good!

The What-Could-Have-Been

It is frustrating when there are mysteries that cannot be solved. Especially those that have a special connection to our lives. My personal frustration while growing up was not knowing who my real parents are. I don’t have a real name, and I don’t know who I really am. I got over it, accepted it and now I’m okay with it.

A few months ago, Botchok added me as an LJ blog buddy. I found out that he has been reading my entries and decided to add me up. He knows so much about me because of what I write. Our common link is that we both live in the same village. I referred to him as my mystery neighbor. Eventually we traded mobile numbers and he referred to himself as Sancho. We thought of meeting up a couple of times but we weren’t too serious about it. We probably both felt that it would get weird and we won’t be as kenkoy as we were when texting.

We would have met for the first time last Sunday. I was lunching at Italliani’s while I didn’t know that he was at KFC. When I got home, I received a text from him telling me that he’s at Time Zone and will attend mass at 5PM, samahan ko daw siya. I was actually feeling lazy to go out because it was too hot outside. Then I decided I want to get a new multi-card reader at CDR King, so I can have just one excuse to drag myself to ATC and meet up with him. I texted and called, he wasn’t answering. I thought he backed out. I got my multi card reader and spent the rest of the afternoon playing at Time Zone, window shopping and having a massage at The Spa. Monday morning he finally texted me. It turns out he suddenly had chest pains and he had to drive himself to The Asian Hospital. Imagine that situation. He was confined since Sunday. Then our text conversation turned to how earthquakes have been too frequent lately and that it scares me. Then he replied back.

“Don’t be afraid if it’s our time what can we do but pray for a peacful exit.”

That was the last message I received that he himself wrote. Later at around 1pm, I received a message from his phone.

“This is his aunt. We moved him to ICU. He had an attack.”

I kept sending him messages of prayers, hope and strength but I never received any reply. Until this morning.

“Thank you so much for remembering Brian in your thoughts. I’m sure he appreciates it.”

I’m not sure if it was still his aunt texting me or someone else from the family. But his real name was revealed. Brian. His body was cremated and had the service this morning. I assume he passed away when he had that attack last Monday. His remains will be brought to Batangas. Botchok did mention that his family was from there.

I won’t be receiving anymore messages from him of sudden trips to Tagaytay because he’s craving for bulalo; Or stuffing himself at North Park ATC; or out-of-the-blue invites to Malate; or I’m-at-the-gym messages at the middle of the day when I’m still at work. I’ll miss him. Now that he’s gone, there will never be a chance to get to know him better. I was driving this afternoon and I was just dazed. This is just too surreal. We’re blog and text pals. We were communicating the other day and now he’s gone. He will always be a mystery neighbor now.

This is one part of living that I don’t think I’ll ever get used to. I’d hate to see my friends die. I would hate to be left behind. I don’t want to have a long life.

To Botchok, or Sancho, or Brian, thank you for connecting with me. You questioned why young, healthy people like Ace die. And now I question why you have to die. Your death was a mystery. But I hope your wish of a peaceful exit was granted. If only time has been generous, we could have been good friends. And when it’s my turn to go, I hope to finally meet you face to face and be real friends. I know you’re a good guy and you mean well. Wherever you are now, I trust that you are in a better place.

Driving Home

Sunsets make me sad sometimes, very much like how I hate saying good-byes.

Alam mo yung minsan parang pakiramdam mo kuntento ka na. Yung masaya ka na at wala ka nang gustong hanapin pa na mas higit na magpapasaya sa iyo dahil nakakaramdam ka na ng pagod. Yung gusto mo na yung nakikita mo. Tapos bigla na lang matatapos na ang lahat nang ganun-ganun na lang. Ang bahaging 'yan ang nararamdaman ko minsan kapag nakikita ko ang takip silim. Katapusan na ng iyong magandang araw.

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Nalulungkot ako dahil may kilala akong nasa ospital ngayon at nag-aalala ako para sa kanya. Kahapon siya na-confine sa ospital, siya ang drive sa sarili niya. Kaninang umaga ka-usap ko lang siya sa text. Tapos after lunch, nakatangap ako ng text galing sa telepono niya pero Tita niya ang nag padala. Nasa ICU daw dahil inatake. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang rason o kung ano ang problema. But for someone who's far healthier than I am, nakakabigla na magkakasakit siya nang ganito.

*****

I hope all of my friends will always be safe and healthy. I worry about them every now and then.

At Bona Again

Akala ko maabutan ko si Botchok kanina sa ATC pero mahiwagang nag fly siya somewhere over the rainbow. Think positive, think positive. Kaya ang ending, naglaro ako ng Super Bike racing sa Timezone at inabot ako ng mahigit isang oras. May isang koreanong bata pang nag-challenge sa akin. Natalo ko siya dalawang beses. BUWAH HUWAH HUWAH HUWAH! Yan lang naman ang mga kaya kong talunin eh. Yung mga 10 years old. Ahaha ahaha.

Tapos di ko pa feel umuwi. Kaya pumunta na lang ako sa The Spa at nag-aksaya ng pera para sa isang walang kakwenta-kwentang masahe. At least, nakatulog ako. Ehehe. Good luck na lang sa mga thundercats na rumarampa sa sauna.

Pagkatapos ko sa spa, habang naglalakad sa Cinema area, nakasalubong ko si Zekitita! Biruin mo yun. Ilang years ko na yang hindi nakikita. Akala ko nga de-deadmahin ako eh. Kaya hinarangan ko na lang siya. Aba ewan. Quick chika. Sa sobrang quick, wala akong matandaan kung anong pinag-usapan namin. Ahaha ahaha. Ang na-retain lang sa utak ko night shift siya ngayon kaya gising na gising siya kapag gabi. Yun lang.

Bumili na rin ako ng extra multi card reader sa CDR King. Earlier kasi pumunta na ako doon eh pila to death ang dalawang lines. May isang lola nga doon (totoong lola siya, as in grandma) umalis na lang sa pila kasi nakakapagod daw. Bibili pa naman daw siya ng webcam. Hahaha. Kaloka. Sumunod naman daw ako sa paglabas kaya nga nag-Time Zone na lang.

Nasa Bona Coffee ako ngayon. Again. Kasi, nagpapalipas lang ako ng oras. Naghihintay na dalawin ng antok. At higit sa lahat, nakikigamit ng internet, kasi punyeta naman, deadz ang internet ko sa bahay. Infairness sa Globe, ngayon lang na dead ang internet ko mula nang lumipat kami ng bahay. Happy naman ako sa connection ko. Tumawag na ako sa customer service (after 10 times akong na-disconnect ang tawag) at bukas daw may pupunta sa bahay para mag check sa connection ko, on site.

Pucha. Di ako maka browse nang maayos. May nagdo-download ng torrent. Tama ba yan??

Hindi ako makakagat ng mga lamok ngayon dahil naka pants ako. Di pa ako nagpapalit ng damit. Sana pag uwi ko may tubig pa rin kami. Nung Friday afternoon at Saturday morning nawalan kami ng tubig sa bahay. Actually, yung 2nd floor ang wala dahil mahina ang pressure ng tubig. Malas ko lang, ako lang ang naka tira sa 2nd floor! Sana tumigil na ang water crisis kasi naha-hassle akong maki-ligo sa gym. Ahaha ahaha.

Inisip ko kanina sa Starbucks madrigal ako tumambay tonight. Free wifi din daw doon. Pero natandaan ko tuwing Sunday evening may meeting ng mga diyosa at diwata doon. Too crowded. Kaya dito ako bumagsak sa Bona Coffee. Bwisit lang yung lalakeng taga issue ng parking ticket. Ang bagal, kainis. Nakikipag daldalan pa sa guard na isa pang lousy. Ka-simple na nga lang ng trabaho, di pa magawa nang maayos. Good choice naman dahil 5 customers lang kami dito at lahat kami nakatutok sa laptop. Bwisit nga lang ang isa diyang nagto-torrent. Heller naman di ba?

Hmmm. May dumating na tatlong bagets.

“Dude, I love this place. Trip ko ‘to pare. It’s so quiet here pare.”

Tangina. So straight. Pfffft.

Uwi na rin siguro ako. Pero sana pagdating ko sa bahay, inaantok na ako.

An hour of tender loving care in the eight o'clock sunshine!

Bumibisita nanaman si white stray cat sa garden ni mudra. Akala ko gusto nang makipag kaibigan na sa akin. Yun pala nagmamaganda lang. Bruhang yang. Anong akala niya sa garden namin, hall way ng CB? Pero minsan naiisip ko rin talaga na baka reincarnation siya ni Mimi Sue tapos…



Ah ewan. Imagination ko nanaman ang tumatakbo dito.

Anyway, petiks mode ako nung Wednesday. Actually, di masyado. Kasi I spent most of my afternoon updating my personal financial records. Nakaka haggard kasi ang dinaanan ko mula September 2009 hanggang February 2010. Di pa dumadating yung mga March 2010 bank statements ko. Alam kong sinabihan ko na ang sarili kong to always update my records every month. Eh kaso, ang tamad-tamad ko. Sana ibang tao na lang mag record para sa akin. Si yaya kasi lumipat na ng New York.

ECHOZ!





OK lang naman. Successful naman ang update session. At least nagkakaroon ng silbi ang computer ko bukod pa sa facebook, porn at torrent. I felt so happy to complete my task after 4 hours, I felt like a new woman.

ECHOZ!

I was so disappointed last week when my friends visited kasi they wanted to watch Temptation Island, eh kaso hindi ko makita yung punyetang VCD na kinopya ni Nelicom para sa akin 2 years ago. Para na akong si Sisa sa kakahanap ng VCD na yun, hindi ko talaga makita. Nakakaloka. Eh yesterday, nasa ruins kami ni boyfriend at may na-discover kaming isang stall na nagbebenta ng Tagalog DVD movies. At bongga siya ‘day. Merong DVD ng Temptation Island! Sabi pa ng tindera dami daw naghahanap ng Temptation Island. And I’m sure ang mga lola ng parañaque ang mga yun. Bumili rin ako ang ng DVD ng Hihintayin Kita sa Langit (Richard at Dawn!) at Immortal (Si Ate Vi!!!!). Di ko alam kung kailan ko sila mapapanood pero kagabi pinanood ko na yung Temptation Island habang ginagawa ko ang aking homework.



“Sabihin mo kay Vicente na ihanda ang Mercedes na charcoal gray. Mas gusto ko yatang magpahatid para I can leave anytime I want. Late entrance, early exit. Yan ang dramatic!”

Punyeta ka Suzanne. Ipinanganak ka dapat na diyosa!! Alavyu!

Sana sana sana sana sana gawin ulit yung stage play nito. Super please!!!!

Gimme a Yosi!

I should be in bed right now. I still got work tomorrow (while the rest of the country will party on a holiday). But instead, I'm enojying the late night, listening to downtempo -- early music of Erykah Badu. I remember listening to her CDs (2 palang that time) years ago (hindi pa uso ang iTunes) on Sunday afternoons while drinking beer.

* Sigh

Those emo days.

The Side Effect

When it’s cold, it’s still hot. And when it’s hot, it’s REALLY hot. That’s how it is now. Summer. I love it, and I hate it. I hate it because I sweat more than usual. I will love it only when I’m at the beach.

No sign of cold summer nights, yet. An hour ago, at 8pm, it was 31 degrees outside. I’m not an aircon person but it seems I will be using it for the next few weeks if I’m aiming for a better night’s sleep.

Ako pa eh insomniac ako.

*****

Today was not a good day. Not because it’s a Monday. I miss my weekend already. 3 or 4 days na sunud-sunod na kasama ko mga kaibigan ko was fun yet tiring. I was so sleepy today, I was able to take naps in the car in between branch trips. This is the normal side effect of a good weekend for me. Or in this case, a good week.

Anyway, it’s ALWAYS great to see my friends. I will always mention that. People who I wish were my brothers. The real hugs were priceless. I can never complain about that. Everyone needs a hug every now and then.

I was looking at our dimly lit living room and I was thinking the other day my friends were here hanging out. Now it’s quiet. And so is the swimming pool.

…and the sad violin plays in the background.

*****

Christina’s lola died yesterday. She was confined at the Asian Hospital since Wednesday. She was 90 years old. I was so tired, I didn’t do my afternoon rounds. I took a nap instead, because I swear, after lunch, I couldn’t keep my eyes open. Plus, I thought I was close to having a flu. I already had a sore throat. I visited the wake in Funeraria Paz at the Manila Memorial in Sucat after my nap. Chris was there. And so were her Mom and Dad. The place was not yet crowded. I met her 3-year-old nephew who’s so hyper he talks 3,000 km per minute. Kaya naman pala. He loves candies.

Before going home, I visited the grave of my brother, the original Felipe. When I was a kid, puro name plates lang ang nasa area na yun. But I guess over the years, relatives of our dead “neighbors” became richer and started building these huge tomb stones and markers. Sa amin na lang yata ang natitirang flat pa rin ang lote. Ehehe. I think Mom is planning of moving Felipe’s remains to our little slot in St. James.

*****

I'm hoping my cough won’t get worse tomorrow. I super need to do my rounds. Right now, I already have colds. So I’m really crossing my fingers for good health.

So please please please. Dalawin sana ako ng antok.

Concluding Weekend

In our village, posters of the candidates of the coming elections are placed at some neutral places assigned by the village office. Usually on vacant lots. I wish the rest of the country can do the same, even in non-private residencial areas, because unregulated postings on public posts, walls and establishments is just too unpleasant to see. Wouldn’t it be nice if there’s order?



*****

I haven’t seen the Southies in a long time. And the last time they visited was late last year. I don’t exactly remember who made plans but someone wanted to have a Saturday night hangout time so I reserved my weekend for it. Rusky arrived early, we still had time to watch the DVD of Rent Live. Roadrockafella and Fenrirtatler had a minor obstacle at the gate maybe because it was already 10:30 pm and the security guards had to confirm this and that. When my other friends visited naman the other day, hindi na ako tinawagan sa telepono ng guard. Kasi siguro it was still day time. Medyo nakaka high blood. Pero nakarating din naman sila.



Siguro we starting swimming around midnight. But we didn’t stay too long. The water was too cold. At least for Roadrockafella. Ahaha.

Nakita ni Roadrockafella yung DVD ng Kung Fu Panda. Hindi pa daw niya napapanood. So we watched that while chomping on pizza. Fenrirtatler was too tired to keep awake, he slept through later part of the movie, climbed on my bed and dozed off. The rest of us continued talking after the movie until siguro 3:30AM. Rusky had to go home. Roadrockafella and Fenrirtatler stayed for the night. Instant sleep over.



Baka medyo matatagalan na makita ko ulit ang Southies, or at least the next time they come over to hangout. Fenrirtatler is leaving tomorrow for SF to visit his family. And when he comes back start na ng internship niya. Rikitikitik left yesterday for a 3-month work-related stint in Chicago. And Roadrockafella and Kckevin are going to the Songkran Festival.

Anyway, it was a good week, and a good weekend seeing my friends. At least nagagamit na ang swimming pool nang mas madalas. I have to remind myself to swim regularly. I’m not looking forward to the new week. But I have this positive feeling left by the past week to keep me optimistic and smiling for now.

My Holy Week So Far

Tulad ng sinabi ko sa previous entry, pumunta kami ng mahiwagang pamilya ko, kasama si Kuya, Ate T, Tita G at yung apat na pamangkin ko sa Bacolod Chicken House diyan sa BF. Pagkadating namin kami lang ang tao sa loob. Siguro kasi maaga kami dumating, or konti na lang ang taong natitira pa sa Metro Manila. Apparently, favorite ng mga Kuya ko ang BCH kaya bentang-benta sa kanila ang chicken kahit na yung nakamamatay na batchoy.

Noong napatingin ako sa bintana, nalaman ko na kung bakit kami lang ang tao doon.



Kasi bukas na pala yung bagong Hap Chan sa tapat. It’s sorta kinda mabenta siya ha. I love Hap Chan. Like I love chinese boys.

Medyo nalulungkot ako kapag nakikita ko yung kanto na yan. Minsan lang naman. Kasi mula noong bata pa ako (o di ba, ang tagal tagal tagal tagal na nun?), mula noong nagka-building kami sa BF, noong nakatira pa kami sa Merville, noong sikat pa si Julie Vega, noong wala pang puting buhok ang Kuya ko, Shakey’s na ang nakapwesto diyan. Natatandaan ko pa nga doon sa Caltex may naka-puwesto na Burger Machine. So para bang may isang alaala ng aking pagkabata ang tuluyan nang nawala.

At ang flashback na ito ay hatid sa inyo ng Alaska. Galing ng lasa, sa sustansya wala pa ring tatalo sa Alaska!

Thursday naman, kabaliktaran sa mga bading na nag-fly away heading sa mga beach for their carnal satisfaction, work naman ako sa umaga. Checking dito, checking doon. Numero, numero, numero. Naloloka na ako sa numero. Nagpapasalamat na lang ako sa aking Sharp calculator na after 10 years ay buhay na buhay pa rin siya. Free plugging yan!



Pagdating naman ng hapon, sinamahan ko si Ed at Angelo sa Visita Iglesia. St. James, Sta. Susana, yung simbahan sa Bene, yung simbahan sa phase 1, yung simbahan sa Aguirre, yung simbahan sa San Antonio Valley at yung Don Bosco church sa Better Living. Puro malapit lang kasi nagmamadali din kami. Hindi naman ako sumusunod sa tradition na yan kaya usually naghihintay na lang ako sa labas ng simbahan habang si Ed nagdadasal sa loob.



Dumating yung ibang mga kaibigan naman namin sa bahay pagdating ng late afternoon. Tambay and swimming. Yun lang naman pwedeng gawin sa bahay namin eh. May poker set pero hindi yata sila nasabihan. Ehehe.



Kinagabihan, swim pa rin while some were drinking na. Feeling the laid back week. It’s the weekend.

Yesterday, Friday, wala kaming pasok. I met up with Ed in the morning. Then went to BF. Picked up Christina and had lunch at Hap Chan with Jing. Saraaaap ng food. Medyo tanga lang yung waiter namin. Tapos wala pang hakao. Yun na nga lang favorite dumpling ko eh. Halos lahat ng tindahan sarado. Pero siguradong bukas yung mga nasa North Gate. We had a coffee break at Starbucks. Sobrang init kahapon. Hindi ko maintindihan. Bored din si D sa bahay kaya sumunod siya. In the afternoon, swimming nanaman with Ed and D.



Ngayon naman nasa office ako. Bakit? Wala lang. Nagre-reyna-reynahan. Kanina pang 7AM nandito na ako. Para setting good example to my employees ang chorva. Pero anong ginagawa ko? Nagbo-blog. Tama ba yan? Ang sagot, tama. Dahil ako ang reyna. In a few minutes sugod ulit ako sa barbershop. Sana may barbero. Magugulat yun sigurado at imbes na naka puruntong shorts ako, naka jeans ako ngayon. Hindi ako mukhang bagong gising.

Baka mamayang hapon, kung sipagin, punta ako sa gym. Sana kaunti lang ang tao.